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Extravagant. adj

1. Given to lavish or imprudent expenditure;
2. Exceeding reasonable bounds, excessive, unrestrained;
3. Extremely abundant, profuse;
4. Unreasonably high, exorbitant;
5. Straying beyond limits or bounds.

Lately and often, this phrase has been permeating my mind: "Love extravagantly." I hadn't the faintest clue why until I came upon this verse:

"Observe how Christ loved us. His love was not cautious, but extravagant. He didn't love in order to get something from us but to give everything of himself to us. Love like that."
-Ephesians 5:2

Too often, I've felt that I needed compensation for loving somebody. I expected too much. To love extravagantly means to love intentionally and deeply. But we can't. At least... not in the state we're in. Only upon realizing how much God loves us - deeply and immeasurably can we in turn love others the same way.

Hermit Mode: Disengaged.

Room's still a mess, bathroom's still filthy. BUT, I don't feel like shit anymore. Dunno what happened, nor can I try to explain. This earthly body seems to yearn for constancy and the only way it can possibly achieve it is by going through a swing of hills and valleys. I know He listens to me, even though He never answers me directly, I know He smiles on me, especially during the dark times of my life when I search for answers and find none, and yet... continue to press forward. Gonna go to my buddy's cabin for the weekend. Catch some rays (as if I need anymore ;p), toss some disc, enjoy the water. Life is both dreadful and beautiful. Much love, London.

Pictures will be up next week. OH, and whoever left those bible verses in my comments on my last post and didn't leave their name... HOW DARE YOU! And thanks. =D

Live your life.

Hermit Mode: Engaged.

The room is in shambles, my bathroom's filthy. I haven't done my laundry in two weeks. I generally feel like shit. I dunno what's happened, nor can I try to explain. My passion is gone. Food has lost its flavour, songs have lost their meaning. Friends at this point seem... well, pointless. And worst of all... is that I miss Him.

"Sometimes you need to hit rock bottom before you can get back up."
-Alana Fife, my old high school friend

Indeed, I have hit rock bottom. Or have I? Kinda scary if I haven't.

I'm mad at Him. Disappointed in some major things that have happened in my life. Angry that He never answers me. I haven't heard His voice in years. Do I dare say that I don't love Him anymore? I miss the passion that I used to have. All I wanted in life was to be happy. But I still don't know what makes me happy. I'm frightened to death that I might not ever know. All I wanted from Him was to tell me what I should do. Give me a vision, like You did, 6 years ago.

Her name is Hunter. She's an idealist, like me. She's in the military, like me. Grew up in Winnipeg, like me. Works in the same office, like me. Funny how when I asked her what an idealist like her was doing in the military, she had the same answer, like me: "I don't know."

Wyatt Earp: All I ever wanted was to live a normal life.

Doc Holiday: There's no normal life, Wyatt, there's just life. Now live it, up to the hilt.

Pray for me?

Les GunZ!

I wanted to take this time to advertise a game that I think I've fallen in love with. Not since my Counter-Strike days have I been so addicted! And the best part about it is that it's free! GunZ is an action shooter MMORPG game like no other. It boasts superb crisp graphics which looks like it runs off the Half Life engine, and with the new update, the sounds of weapons fire and shells falling sounds so much more fuller. Weapons range from pistols to SMG's to rifles, shotguns, heavy machine guns and even grenade launchers! The coolest thing are the blades where you can wield daggers, swords or even two swords at a time! In addtion to picking weapons, you'll also have the choice of wardrobe all with their own special attributes and styles. Of course, your choice of weapons and clothing will vary as you progress up the levels.

I first saw this game in action at my friend's house and my initial impression was that it was a cross between Max Payne and the Matrix. And indeed you can be like Neo with the air dashing and running up and along walls and dodging gun fire and smooth mélé acrobatics. Everything short of stopping bullets. I highly recommend that anybody with a decent comp and broadband connection, and is into swift action like you see in the movies to try out this game. It's definitely worth the five minute download. And if you ever do sign up, drop me a line, I'll add you as a friend and show you the ropes. You'll be shooting and slicing it up like a pro in no time!

Thine Long Weekend Hath Pass't

Hung out with my ultimate frisbee team this past weekend. Fun was had by all. Beach on Friday, our own fireworks show at night. Victoria Beach on Saturday, karaoke at night. Grand on Sunday, hail storm in the afternoon. Crazy. Oh, and I got heat stroke on Saturday. So fun. Click on the image to see more craziness.